W.E.L.C.O.M.E.

Monday

My Summer Classes are Over....

Yahoo! sa wakas tapos na din ang summer classes ko! Talagang bakasyon ko na. Este sila lang pala. Di kasi me pumasok kaninang umaga para mag-take ng exam sa research eh. Pano hindi pa kasi kami tapos gawin ang t. paper namin. Tsaka hindi ko pa din tapos gawin yung mga requirements ko kay sir. Ni hindi na nga ako natutulog eh. At hanggang ngaun hindi pa din ako natutulog. Musta naman! eh dapat pa ako mamaya gumising na naman ng maagang maaga para mag-review. We'll try to go to school kasi in the morning para i-take yung exam na yun eh. Hay... buti pa sila bakasyon na. Ako hindi pa. Di bale after ko naman ng ma-take yun eh talagang bakasyon na rin ako.

Grabe talaga kaninang umaga, sobrang busy ako. Ni hindi na nga ako makausap ng matino ng mga tao dito sa bahay eh. Tsaka pagkinakausap nila ako eh nagsusungit naman ako. Hay what can I say.. ganun talaga ako eh. Pag may ginagawa talaga ako at tipong rush na rush na, dapat mabuting gawin ay wag nalang akong kausapin. Para kasing nagugulo ang utak ko at nalilimutan ko na ang mga gusto kong sabihin pagnababaling ang atensyon ko sa iba.

Sa totoo lang pinaka-natagalan ako sa paggawa ko kasi nung reflection paper eh. Ewan ko ba! tipong magk-kwento lang naman ako o kaya naman gagawa lang ng letter pero dun pa ako pinakanahirapan. Nahirapan kasi ako dahil I really want to open-up kay sir, tell him things I wanted to say, kaso mukhang dapat ata ang medium na gagamitin ay english. Kaya yun in-english ko na. Hay mas gusto ko kasi tag-lish pag gumagawa ng reflection eh. Mas nakakapag-express ako ng mabuti at tuloy tuloy lang ako sa pagsusulat, siguro dahil na rin sa factor na sariling wika ang ginagamit. Ito nga ang gawa ko oh:

DALANGIN, Rica Ann N. Sir Allan “Abstract” Layug
BSIR- Diplomacy 05-28-2007

Honestly, I don’t know where to begin this, because there are a lot of things I wanted to tell you. It’s just kind of hard to write it here because I have to speak in english. But if only given the chance that I could be like most of my classmates who’s eager to speak up, then you’ll know my piece. Nevertheless, I’ll try to put it all here now. Just so you know.

Well, I remember the first day of my summer class. I was a bit scared then the moment Ma’am Nalangan came in to our room. You know why? coz she seemed to be scary to me. I was her student before on the same subject that is why I know. I know she’s a good professor, but the fact that I’m not comfortable with her around makes me feel uneasy going to her class twice a week. Maybe, I’m just not used to her kind of approach and I think I won’t learn at all with that kind of treatment. That is also the reason why I enrolled comparative gov’t of Asia… this summer since most of my classmates were saying that she might not teach it, because there is someone who will be handling it. So obviously, the main reason I enrolled the subject this summer than on a regular semester is because I want to run from her. Yeah… I think so (?)

Anyway, on that day, she told us that she’s not sure if she’ll be teaching the subject. I was relieved --- really. Because I am also thinking that if she’ll be the one teaching, then I might failed again the subject, and I’m afraid that I might stay longer in the university. But then, the next day you came in to our room. You know what’s the reaction of my classmates that knew you? They were all mixed emotion. Some say you’re cool because you are funny; and some say you’re tough because of your paperworks and readings. Well, we really got to taste that. And everything they said about you was true.

Cool and tough as you are, you have proven to us that you are who you are. It gave much more sense when you are most of the time emphasizing that all you want from us is to learn. You act cool for you to reach out on us; tough so that we could focus on our studies. Isn’t it great? I like it because you combined both which makes you a lot more interesting than other professors and instructors I’ve met.

Sir, believe me when I say, “I’ve learned a lot from you”, not only regarding our subject matter, but also logic, philosophy, liberty and reality. You know what’s nice? Through the fallacies and critical thinking, it made me learn to think deeper and see both sides of everything not only about politics, states, governments etc. but also in my real world. Because of that, I learned to adopt that in my everyday life in giving judgement and approval to myself. I also learned to speak-up, though not when it comes to reciting but when it comes to reasoning out for what I believe in. I learned it from you. Coz you speak what’s on you mind (even though I think you are only most of the time speaking intellectual things than emotional matters). You always have a reason to everything--- even in small things, thus you were able to defend yourself, which I cannot before I learned how. And lastly, through your sort of “words of wisdom” I discovered the real world. Like I learned how to see things in a wider perspective than just by looking inside the box. You see, it’s so nice that you have given so much of what you have and what you can offer. But I always wonder why they couldn’t see it? Although you don’t have to prove yourself to anybody, still they never gave you another try. If only they could think first before they act, then they will know that you are more than that.

I’m happy to be part of your class, Sir. Despite me not being able to participate in our discussion and just sitting down in your class everyday, it is not just because I’m shy to participate or to recite but more importantly, that is because I only want to listen to you, because you always seemed to have the right words when you speak. I could even listen to you all day long, but that is, if you still joke around… because in that way we/I could re-energize our/my mind because of exhaustion because you are so genius to comprehend. (=.=);;

But then, I’m sorry for not keeping my promise to recite and not paying my debt to you. Honestly, I’m the type of student that is not aiming to get a (1.0) grade. Sure, it will bring joy to my parents. But they are happy enough that at least I did well in school, and that I don’t have failing grades (especially now that I’m graduating). Besides, it feels like I don’t deserve getting (1.+) grades at all. That is why I don’t know if it is justifiable for me earning a (1.0) midterm exam and (1.75) midterm grade from you. Or maybe you are just being too kind? But right now I could even answer it for you--- that you are so kind to us. No wonder because you always lets us win.

I would like to say thank you for all you martyrdom for us. Joke. I only said that because you spoiled us too much. You gave everything for us without gaining anything in return. Thank you also for your dedication and passion in teaching. Please, Do not stop teaching because it’s not good to imagine losing a great teacher like you. Please continue doing what you like best, especially now that you are already there. Continue inspiring others like you have inspired mine, because having you as a teacher motivated me well (in all aspects). Hopefully, your future students will feel the same way too.

On behalf of our college, I want to say sorry for all the troubles they had caused you. Maybe, you just became misunderstood because you don’t open-up. You still seemed so mysterious after all. Nevertheless, that is what you have chosen and that must be respected. It’s just sad that they failed to fathom with you. Please forgive them.

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Hay.. ang drama ba? Pasencia na kasi last naman na toh eh.
Basta ingat nalang po kayo palage.
Tsaka sencia na kung naguluhan kayo sa gawa ko… ang labo ko talagang kausap eh.hehe.
Sige. B-bye po. v^_^v

Medyo mahaba din naman sya. Mga 2 pages din yan. Nahirapan siguro ako gawin yan dahil nakakalungkot lang, kasi parang farewell message or letter ko na rin yan sa kanya eh. Aalis na kasi sya for good sa school. Kakainis kasi yung classmate kong yun! Sya ang pasimuno ng lahat! Kaya yun aalis na siya.

Multi-tasking ako kanina ah. Kakaloka yun! Ano na nga ba ginawa ko after kong gumawa ng reflection? Ah! yung pagc-compile naman ng mga questions kay sir ang inatupag ko. Tapos mejo sinisingit din yung mga pinapagawa s'kin ni Pia about sa t. paper namin. Pero sa totoo lang, wala din ako sa kanyang naitulong in the end. Ewan ko nga kung ok lang yun sa kanya eh. Pero mukhang ok lang naman talaga sa kanya. Kaso nakukunsensya pa din ako dun. Pero, wala din naman akong nagawa kasi nga may iba pa akong ginagawa.

Mas naging tighter pa ang tasks ko nung mga 9 am onwards na. I need to finish everything na kasi, and then fixed myself pa for school. Tapos hindi pa ako nakakapagbasa ng mga readings ko. Sobrang panic mode na naman ako kasi ich-check yun ni sir. Eh pano pagtinawag na nya ako tapos wala akong maipakita? eh di patay na! Mga ganun na naiisip ko kasi iniisip ko din na baka yung mga classmates ko tapos na magbasa o kaya naman mas marami na silang lahat nabasa kesa s'kin eh nakakahiya naman yun.

Umiyak pa nga ako kanina eh. Ewan ko ba. Basta nalang tumulo luha ko. Napapagod na din kasi ako eh. Gusto ko ng sumuko. Kaso ano nalang mangyayari sa grades ko pag hindi ako nakapagpasa di ba? kaya wala nalang akong nagawa kundi umiyak kanina. Buti nalang andun si Pia who made me relaxed a bit. Well, it helps ah. Thanks dude!hehe...

12 noon na nun. Malapit ng matapos t. paper namin. Kaya naman kahit na busy ako sa ginagawa ko kanina eh tinulungan ko na din sya. Naku naman noh! ang kapal ko na nun kapag hindi ko pa siya tinulungan noh! Kaya yun. eh musta naman yun! 1 pm ang exam ko sa comp gov't at hindi pa ako umaalis ng bahay. Ni hindi pa nga ako nakakapagsuklay eh. Grabe talaga! mas inuna ko pa ang mga requirements ko bago ang sarili ko. Naman!

I decided na magpapa-late nalang ako sa exam ko dun. Tutal naman kasi sabi ang exam namin sa kanya eh 1-6 pm daw. Haba noh? Critical thinking kasi. Magt-two na rin me nakaalis ng bahay. Patay na kasi ako dahil super late na talaga ako nun eh. Tsaka baka mamaya mahirapan pa akong mahabol na mga classmates ko sa pagsasagot ng exam namin. Ah! tsaka din kasi baka makulangan na ako sa oras at hindi ko na yun matapos.
posted by rian at 5/28/2007 08:04:00 PM

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